Hello 2012

1/1/2012


今年很特别，因为和朋友们在Station 1 做跨年演唱会。


羡慕我吧。。。


没有一个朋友到场支持我，我很孤单，失落

但我发现就算你孤单，你很低落，

你很伤心的时候，看到大家因跨年的喜悦，

你自己也会被那里的氛围影响到而变得开心一点。。

当你再弹吉他，你在唱。。

沉浸在音乐，很多事情你会忘记。。

看着大家跨年的狂欢。。

大家的喜悦。。

大家的疯狂。。

还真的以为2012是一个平常的年。。

然而，在这日子之前。。

有歌手都唱了末日为主题的歌曲

我们是否想过

我们是否珍惜过

那些你爱或爱你的人。。。

假如世界就要崩溃，你会想做什么？

假如着世界没有明天，你的日子又怎么过呢？

假如只有一首歌的时间，你会做什么呢？

你的生命中有任何遗憾吗？

人总是要失去了，才会想要。。

2010‘5S(爱）常讲把握。。。。

人生的事物，就像一阵微风。。

他喜欢来就来，若不把我就可能没了。。

你是否要尝试失去后才想要得到的痛苦，还是把我现在？

所以要把握好让自己没有遗憾。。

送你这首歌

世界未末日-周杰伦

希望你能珍惜你身边的朋友。。

P/s:2011年过去了。。

      人类没有能力改变从前。。。
     
       但2012是新的开始。。。

      从新出发。。未来就是你的。。。

     让我们一起迈向光明的明天吧！！！

31/12

逃走　翻過圍牆　我只能逃走　從教室裡頭
奔向自由　熟悉角落　有人在等我　有挑釁的笑容

今天誰先開球　讓誰嚐點苦頭
綠色地平線上　我撞著　彩色墮落

也許我這一桿　又沒辦法進球
就像我的生活　一直在出差錯

也許我這一生　始終在追逐那顆九號球

卻忘了　是誰在愛我
卻忘了　是誰在罩著我

從前　書包很滿　裝不下的夢　就丟了一些
未來我們　要怎麼活　凝視著白球　暫時我不去想

天空漸漸變紅　影子爬滿球桌
輸贏沒有結果　像人生　難以捉摸

-五月天-九號球

你有你的九号球吗？

人生就是这样有高潮，也有低谷的时候。。

一但当你开始追梦时，

你是否会因一次的失败而放弃呢？

会不会因成功而骄傲呢？

你会不会效法爱迪生不放弃？

你会不会学残障人士不放弃生命的精神？

人因有梦想而美丽，

人因有梦想而进步，

人因有梦想让世界变得更美好，

人生没有一帆风顺，

一定有起伏。。。

但你会不会因为这些生活，

而放弃自己的梦想。。。

2011年将要成为历史。。

2012年将到来。。

好不好大家找自己的九号球。。

在2012年朝着自己的梦想前进。。。

在2012年做自己。。

把自己当成别人的祝福。。

22/12

(吉隆坡21日讯）今天是统考成绩的放榜日，中华的毕业生们都很兴奋想知道自己的成绩用了不同的管道去知道成绩。
成绩揭晓时有人喜有人忧，有人喜有人悲。。。

• 其實我不是很在乎成績
• 我比較在意的是
• 我有沒有努力過
• 反正就這樣吧, 我知道我努力過

——雨庭
希望大家活出自己的明天。。

而我的新的路程，将展开。。
希望我能活出自己的明天。。

18/11

今天，我终于知道一个人不被理会的感受，是很痛苦的。。
然后你一心一意想把自己最好的献出来但是永远都做不到。。T_T
haiz～有了一次驻唱经验。。。
真的很难受～我拿着一把吉他弹着3个小时。。。
我有点开心也有伤心。。
开心的是我可以弹歌给人听。。。
伤心的是没有人听我谈。。。

我一直在等待着爱情的到来。。
但爱神永远没来到我这里。。
我是常会羡慕很多一对的。。
在感慨为什么我不能。。


吉他方面有点没有进步。。
有很多多多的挫败感。。
我没有一礼强。。
李宗盛。。。
不能跟卢家宏并列。。
失败的我。。
在驻唱不敢和音。。
不敢唱歌。。
不敢听到自己的声音。。
为何我不能勇敢
我希望我能勇敢，有自信。。
不再犹豫，不再怀疑自己。。
我因这样而失去了很多美好的事物。。

我恨我自己，为何我会这样。。。
？？？

11/12

好累！去帮朋友去顾一群16岁少年真的很痛苦！。。
但当看到他们完成了整个课程。。
真的很感动。。
甚至差一点飙泪。。

然而，我在那儿的最大的提醒莫过于一部电影《face the giant》
而他里面有一句话with God nothing is impossible
提醒我有没有对自己的信仰的信心。。
这部是个很好看的电影只是基督教的元素很重而已。。

29/11

18岁了。。
我在这个世界漂流了18年又5个月十九天。。
觉的我的漂流到了一个十字路口。。
开始要面对我最不想做的事情。。
我是否应该在我很熟悉的马来西亚私立大学进修。。
还是等待国立大学可以让统考生进。。
还是跟我妈妈的意见去新加坡读。。
还是去台湾读为了减少家人的负担。。
我真的不懂我该怎么做。。
我该如何选择。。。
有谁可以帮助我吗？

27/11

昨天，去了sg.long..
2010'5 s(ai) gathering 去了。。
在次找到了遗失很久的熟悉感。。
大家有说，有笑。。
都玩得很开心。。
太爱这班了。。。
真的感觉跟你们一起，就有好像到了一个很熟悉的地方。。
真的希望能有机会在次相聚。。。
我从来没想过大家围炉吃火锅会要用来抢。。
这正好符合达尔文的进化论的学说。。
大家拿着勺子，筷子等着一锅又一锅的火锅。。
当盖子打开的那一刻，大家不分你我一起的抢食物。。。
大家一起抢食物，见证大哥（我徒弟）&大嫂的爱情，一起交流，一起唱K，一起拍照。。
这些都会成为我永远的回忆。。。
谢谢大家。。
这将是我爱。回忆 的一部分。。。。

26/11

今天，尝试用华语打。。。

假期我时常到处走。。。

想办法去充实自己。。

不要去想酱多。。

发现到还是想很多。。。。

但还好有吉他的陪伴。。

我没这么孤单。。

我现在才发现原来我的个性可以让人家对我冷淡。。

我不明白，我好想说话太直，和太呆之外我不懂我有什么缺点。。

感谢某某人的提醒。。

我今天发现我原来不认识我自己。。。

我。。。

在这里，凡是我曾经不小心得罪大家的，我在这里道歉。。

希望得到大家的原谅。。

仅此

21/11

Prom has ended and so my perform for the year has ended..
Finally the whole year de perform end with the final countdown..
i didn't do well in the perform due to nervous b'cos of the band n not enough practice ba...
ok la but i did enjoy in the performance n the prom n1st time perform with a tie n bass whoa.....
n i won a mp3 player which i wanted for abt 2 years..
after prom i watched you are an apple of my eye....
is a very touching movie i almost cried ....
is a verry hard time when you in front the girl you like n wanted to confess yourself..
i hate myself being so coward..
i hate myself not brave enough...
i hate myself ....
but all have pass is pass
i will look towards the future ..
hope everything are fine....

4/11

Before Graduation

Finally, i am almost graduated..
after six years been harshly train to become a exam machine...
sorry i failed....
but in this six years....

i have tried a lot of thing include both good n bad things...
that's makes me grow a lot...
go game station with uniform..
go cyber cafe<x5,mutiara>
go 'dump ball'(someone may noe...)
go boiling ...get 130+ T_T
go shopping with friend.. 
had a trip with my class...
playing music with friends in band..
and the last performing in 3 concert in a row in a year..
haha.....


this whole process of six year may be hard to go but all i had i have overcome...
from tomorrow onward i am totally free from the jail called CHKL i am no longer burden by the school about all sort of things...




and    I'm not longer 06536 already XD

6/10

my friends n i feel starve after school so we go to tesco at menjalara(if i had not mistaken) to get our lunch at kfc....

we only ordered 3 sets of meals which cost only 6 bucks each but in the end it results 24 bucks ..

that is nothing ..
after we had our meals...
i go exchange with a burger with my hot ticket...
then i've found that the burger is only as big as a nugget....
what the hack is this.........
it didnt even feel full ....
hate small portion of food...




today...
its a buzy day as usual....
lot of maths problem , physics problem, chem prob....
feel tired.....
i still didn't get use of this life..
but this life will end nearly 18 days...
i hope i can survive in this critical time of my life.....






moreover,
i'm suppose should stay at home for holiday tomorrow on-wards...
but holiday time i still need to get myself to school for extra classes...
no holidays except for sunday...
hate it..
why must exam has to be so suffering.....
why must rush syllabus at the last minutes....
why must school pack all those hard thing to the pre-graduated students..
why....
why????
WHY WHY WHY?????
who can give me the answer.....???!!!!!!

2/10

Trial is over..
but still cant relax ..
everyday in high tension..
till now the ability of solving advanced maths(2) n physics problem didn't come to me..
I didn't done well in trial ..
20++ days to go..
many things i still cant absorb..
Fxxx
die le.. die le..
n many new things come over n over ..
 teacher are rushing to the syllabubs..
hate this world..
y exam are needed in this world..
y must student need exam..
y must the syllabus exceeded pupils ability..
hate it......




ARGH!!!!!!!!

7/8

1st week of august today... i mean is the second week whatever...
so this week i dun noe how i have no brave to get close to the things i wanted..
and feels like i am empty these day..
no goals..
no direction..
jus try to get back my feel this year on january..
hate the world ...
i wish i had the ability of stoping the time..
control the time..
....
hate myself for being so coward ..
that troubles me myself n other ...

24/7

this year is full of performance..
-scc de SOS
-guitar de "the way we return the rainbow guitar"
-harmonica de concert..
but i still cant help making mistakes..
what am i doing...
fear of stage??lighting???facing audience????no enough exp???
but i enjoy practicing with my newly bought guitar...
this harmonica de performance is my new breakthrough ..
i have never never never work with harmonica with guitar before...
i am still confuse with some part while i'm on stage..
nt enough practice gua..
i felt sorry for harmonica de partner
never mind everything is over...
i should be now focus on studies..

but i cant ,i dun noe why
maybe my personal problem
whatever.....
its time to fight Voon Swean
.....

21/7

i feel like much more relax n just play music that i like...
its time to get on the camp.. the war is getting ready for us..
nut i hate those wars...
i feel like i'm totally unprepared everything seem like still at the beginning of the year..
i want to stay at my safety zone, i dare not exposed myself into danger..
so this is why i hate those war..
i hate big n heavy burden on my shoulder...
i hate the laws..
i hate the politics..
i hate the world..
keep giving pressure ..
i want my freedom back..
I want my freedom back!!

9/7

today is full of yellow cause of the bersih...

n rumors everywhere bout the bersih gang...

shirt cant wear yellow color de... wtf...

i hate this world for being injustice... ...
i hate go to class...
i hate pressure....
i hate.....

.....

this week i'm busying for guitar de performance..
but i dun noe what im busying for...
this week is full of practice n exam....
it is tiring , fully occupied most of the time...

i have already found a girl i love....
but she seems like jus treat me as a friend..
....
n happy 1 month anniversary to felicia n torres
n hope you 2 love forever...

n i hope you all come support me,
13/7 after school at after school....
so the bu ticket,,,
 to,,,
thats is for today

5/7

昨天假期本来可以开心的过一天的，但昨天并没有，昨天回到熟悉的练习室，感觉很压力，很不自由。玩乐器本来就是一件很开心的事但做么要搞到这样。。。
在那笼捆了7小时后，去到了庆功宴的会场，一个不开心的我开心了起来，开心的度过了一天。原以为我借着这庆功宴可以忘了悲伤，但一切对吉他的不满在今朝表露在脸上。对它不爽有什么用表演还是要继续，还是要面对，我在那里感觉一文不值。我在练习时教练还以为我没表演那首歌而不修我。。。。
真的有够气的。。。
在多7天，我在中华的表演生涯可能会画上句号。。
我希望我可以好好的表演，虽然吉他对一些人来说是闲的。。
我想证明吉他表演可以好过专业的表演。。
文宣，加油！！！

3/7

今天，用中文写。。。。

SOS结束了一个星期。。

但不知为什么，我开始没有了动力。。

什么都不想做。。

不想理。。

连吉他学会的音乐会也不想去理。。。

有时觉得太忙碌了，但不懂自己在忙些什么。。

但在SOS的忙碌练习中

我至少懂我在做什么。。

可能忙了又忙 可能傷了又傷

可能無數眼淚 在夜晚嚐了又嚐
可是換來成長 可是換來希望
如今我站在台上 這麼對你講

十年的功聚成燦爛 那一分鐘的夢
生命舞台發光的人 絕不是只會說《十年一刻》

这是我的 心情写照。。

吉他学会的音乐会将到了。。

我现在很懒。。

我很害怕受伤。。。

有人鼓励我去行动。。

但对于我，我很害怕被拒绝。。

我很没有信心可以做到。。

我很想勇敢。。

很想拥有。。

但我的胆怯害了我。。

我希望。。。

。。。。。。。

。。。。。。

    你会不会忽然的出现　在街角的咖啡店
　我会带着笑脸　挥手寒喧　和你　坐着聊聊天
　我多么想和你见一面　看看你最近改变
　不再去说从前　只是寒喧　对你说一句
　只是说一句　好久不见《好久不见》

26/6

SOS concert has come to an end ......
now i felt that emptiness deep inside my heart..
i always claims that i don't like bass ,but i'm having fun by playing it..
i admit is extremely nervous facing a whole big crowd ..
but it is so happy n high when i heard crowd screaming..
i love jamming a lot now..
by the way when i'm feeling nervous everyone is giving me support makes me calms down ...
thanks everyone in scc..
i love you all....

18/6

Happy fathers day to all father...
Sos concert countdown  6 day more
feeling excited n happy...
till now i'm not sure that i can perform it well ...

my result come out le due to take full time in music i gt a fail in the exam...
but now im nt feeling depress..

now i feel like im abnormal...
Y?
it's because im now falling in love
the time now is critical...
n every1 is buzying............................
so this is for today thx...

9/6

finally i'm almost 18 haha...
this week is the most busiest holiday in my life history..
last week whole week run here n there in guitar n scc very very tired...
then this week whole week nid go back to school for tuition for maths n physics..
after tuition go villaangsana for jamming + rehearse for concert song...
n night still gt training for guitar.....
i enjoy the time when doing this but it is too tired i nid more rest....
so pls pray for me that i can rest well

23/5

today is a tiring day ....
thx for my friend rynzz ham ,eng pin ,zeng loong ,kok tong , suat yin ........
i have a good time with you although i have other business need to be done but its real fun...
cause of yesterday run n play for half day...
i am sleeping throughout the whole day in school..
first time advertised the concert feels fun n a bit rush but i like the atmosphere..
i'm going to write another two song maybe demo n lyrics will post at here as soon i finished it...
so this is for today n im voon swean...   

17/5

today having a fun time with my friend Guo Zhao , Adrian Ong , Sm n others...
First time eat food in subway
we having fun talking  n chating...
n we saw Ah Ham(tofu), Jing Ke went study at there while we were chit chat
a whole contrast...
then we go for bowling at mutiara..
i got the highest score which is 71 marks...
what a shame..
conclusion we had a fun time together
I started to admire them which is in college or university...
they looks like so freaking free...
like no stress...
it's a different world form secondary school...
but anyway i have to keep on pushing me harder..
best wishes SCC ROCKS!!!
                  GUITAR SOCIETY FIGHTING!!!WE CAN DO IT !!!
so Fight till the end.........

16/5

Exam exam exam.....
hate this week cause of  i have been told to study
i have to admit that i'm lazy to study...
i dun noe how but i still cant make my mind to study in uec seriously for now..

another thing i have bought a new cellphones ...
n happy dou first time use my own money buy ...
haha...

I am now feeling depress , confused  dun noe what have i do
i think im fall in to a trap called love
cause of the thing i cant concentrate preparing the examination n through out of it...

my guitar skill is still haven improved for month ..
i feel like i am still a noobies
i feel afraid to touch the song "you and me" from lifehouse
it is a good song it because of something i feel afraid to sing the song...

i am now interested in playing ukulele . cause it is a string instrument like guitar n the tone produce is like a happy feel ...
for depressed people like me is a good instrument...

i wanna tell her i'm sorry that i cant help her very much ...
in maths  ..
n tutoring guitar...
all my student have not big improvement....
i feel like im useless ......
i hate myself...
cant do everything well
causing troubles to others ...
.....
....
 

8/5

It's raining today...
somehow i feel like i'm lack of something..
i have no confident in everything including my guitar..
i feel like i'm useless ..
i can't help anyone and only make others busier ....
i have always try to let others that thinks that i'm a nice person..
always in a good mood...
But this is not the reality...
someone scold me stupid ...
why i teach people guitar for free???
i always answer that i will feel the stress for the pays so i teach for free..
8/5 mushroom's b'day
hope her will have a realty happy day ..
8/5/2011
is also mother's day
one of my friend says that mother's day is not just a day to celebrate with mother
it's a day to remind us about the sacrificial of mother to us..
so hope everyone have a nice day today....
for those who will go for exam ....
just try the best you can but remember to rest when you are tired...



                                                                                                                           By Voon SWean

26/4

I hate my school ..
I didn't feel like go to school..
I hate going to school...
i am already 18 years old...
still go for secondary school...
some of my friend had just started their college/campus life
but still i have to trap in the school life..
doing the same thing everyday...
sit at my place for 8 hr for teacher's teaching..
full of exam....test....
why i want to go for uec examination?
Am i have nothing to do?
Am i haven't set a target?
No,i have good grades in science subject..
all because of my desire to perform...
cause i cant perform if i am a outsider
so i decide to stay back for a year...
now i have to say..
i hate my school for all those silly rules n regulation..
hair cutting session by 'professional' Hair stylist
house system n all those events......
including now we must enter the class when bell rings
even now we cant go to others class during recess.....
6/7 months to go 
then i'm free from school life....
i will be happy ....
haha ...
wishes me a good luck...


                                                                                                                              From
                                                                                                                             Voon Swean

24/4

first of all happy easter day to you all...
this week is full of busyness due to the easter day celebration of cf in school
i cant even have a time to eat my breakfast enjoy killing my time...
finally all is over my burden have been brought down..
for this week is almost like that la..
but i feel proud first time i become mc i gt praise of  course with the help of my partner crystal low
n God's gift..
now is getting ready for the rush of my academic achievement..
hoping i can read my book well n get good grades...

17/4

This is the day that the lord had made ....

again is sunday...

some of my friend attend the Ielts mock test...

the cf started to rehearsal for the easter day celebration
hope everything is fine.....

then nth  le........

3/4

Sunday agn...
this week I'm totally tired n exhausted...
for some reason i have missed my bass class at wed..
n i have finally passed up my 2nd n 3rd song on 1/4
1/4 we(i n guitar society friend) go to wei ling's house to prepare for the thing
that day is my first time prepare for 园游会 n the last time...
2/4 i go perform for scc 'wild rose' is a fun thing to do but is still not so good
is cause by the pa system....
haha...
how is time to rest for a while..
our form teacher Tan Kian Hun is retire from his job
n now who is going to be our next form teacher n our next math teacher...
haiz~ is a sad story to hear that ...
this is for today
                                                                                                                                    
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                                                                                                                          Voon Swean  

20/3

holiday is almost over everything needs to go back to normal ....
I hate attending classes especially physics + all language classes...
this is the second time my holidays fulls of activities...
I like this holiday thanks to 5s(ai) classmates and also Song Composing Club(scc)..
For guitar society i felt sorry for you all for disappointed you all especially Steward for I'm not playing the Medley..
I felt like i'm going to burst out,my guitar training , guitar society , scc , and also church event ....
I need to rest........
Good luck to me in the audition....
If you saw this post and you are free
Please come to station 1 cafe , cheras
8 pm a whole bunch of performance waiting you all...
hope to meet you there...



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                                                                                                                          Voon Swean  

15/3

Haha, Yih Fong's b'day today....
Well, he has just got home from NS Sunday..
Firstly,welcome him back home(clap,clap)...

14/3


Abt 8 pm at monday, a gang which include me, KY,Blaze,John depart from Setapak to Ummarani..
Due to some circumstances we were late for the meeting there...
then around 10pm we depart to Qing Yan's house ...
then after we arrive at Qing Yan's house ,we started to plan everything ...
after finish planning is abt 11.30pm then we go to Yih Fong's house to give him a b'day surprise..
our plan has successfully done with the help of his mom..
we celebrated his birthday at 0000 sharp...
then we get ourselves to sleep...

15/3


1000  we going from his house to 1U
          having a breakfast at MCD
1100 go newway to sing some songs....
1430 just got out from newway
         separated to two team guy n girls..
         girls go for movie and the boys are returning home...
1700 reach home

this is the whole celebration with him....
with the help of every1 involved in it...



                                                                                                                               By Voon Swean

13/3

Sunday morning 7.03am again, 7 days after the first post i'm here to give a report of the event happen on Friday.
At first my final paper of the examination which is biology i think i will fail the test cause i'm using Chinese for the exam(for your information I'm poor in Chinese)but in the end i found out i can pass the exam.

After the 7th period (1.15pm), Hong Kai n friends(including me) go to The Gardens..
then when we at there ,we don't know whether we want to go Red Box or go for movie..
for a long discussion we decide to go for Red Box...
While listening for Hong Kai singing ,I and KL is enjoying our buffet lunch...

5.30pm i tumpang KL's car to Petalling Street and i went to KL Gospel Hall to go for graduation ceremony of my friend from a camp..
after i arrive at there i found that i'm the first one to arrive at there then i become helper for an hour or 2

8.30pm the ceremony starts I wonder what if i at the stage what role would i play...

then  about 11pm i finally went back home....
feels exhausted....
but feel happy and great...
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10/3

a surprise today....
we have just finish our chemistry test at the 2nd period...
then our chemistry teacher bring a whole bunch of paper to class at the 5th period....
guest what???
she had finished marking our exam paper....
what the world is this, a teacher finish marking 42 students' exam paper within 105 minutes is totally unbelievable
give the teacher a clap.....
so powerful...
i though our physics teacher can give back us our exam paper the next day is already consider fast ...
someone is faster than her...

Finally the exam is almost over ..
I can rest up for a little while..
starting compose song
the time is near....
looking forward to tomorrow trip to mid valley...
wondering what is my voice sounds through mic...

The whole easter day celebration thing is working well ..
1st time..
easter celebration will be held in school waiting for the approval of the proposal...
If you are a Christian please pray for it ...
We need your prayer...
that's all for today....
thanks for reading...
                                                                                                                                  By Voon Swean      

1 st blog.....

0734 now on sunday a perfect time to write something .....

i'm try to express some of my feeling  n post some of my music in here...

if u all have anything you all dun like please comment me ...

i'm ready to learn....